\:D/ i'll show you!:D (very very busy)
before ciggy: and i cry, ohmygod do i cry, and then i pout and go out feeling miserable.
during ciggy (which has obviously become a temporal label. humor me here)
turn on mp3player, listen to Kante- Die Tiere sind unruhig and chill. get a bucket of energy splashed in a few minutes. back in full throttle.
after ciggy: change yahoo messenger status to "\:D/ i'll show you!:D (very very busy)", rebel against everyone who thinks you can't do it and do it!
what follows: a lot of german, and words posted on my wall, and colours, and underlining, and a sea of dictionaries all over the floor and and and. enthusiasm again. i love adrenaline who's with me?!